Chance Magazine

NEW BLOG

2010-11-07T14:47:00.000Z

Try it? It's a baby though, only three days old! Hopefully I'll post more frequently than I ever did on this one.

Explanations&Goodbye(Sort Of)

2010-02-10T16:28:00.000Z

Ok just a quick explanation:
Somehow with my amazing technological skills I have completely messed up the template/settings stuff for this blog. Yeh basically I'm just an idiot and completely rubbish at computers.
So I've transfered all the content from here to a brand new blog: Desirable? which hopefully will be a bit better than this one anyway!

I Waited Up For You, Couldn't You Come Back Home?

2010-02-06T13:09:00.000Z

Ever since I was very young I have had an obsession with the Mitford sisters. Born in the early 1900's, all six have a fascinatingly different story to tell. Throughout their eventful lives high society glamour was intertwined with politics, Nazism, love affairs, elopement, marriage and divorce. Since September I have been working on an art project based around their different lives and identities and then today I bought this month's UK Tatler which had a fabulous interview with the youngest sister, Debo, Duchess of Devonshire, the only one still living in. It was a great suprise to learn they are becoming more well-known and I seriously reccomend googling them if you have an interest in history, fashion and literature. These are some of my favourite photographs of them.

Maybe We Just Stopped Trying

2010-02-01T18:27:00.000Z

Got home to find that March's Vogue had come in the post. There's a great piece from Alexa Chung on denim and gorgeous photos too! I love Alexa Chung's style and how she's different to a lot of the it-girls out there.

Head Full Of Dreams On My Pillow

2010-01-12T15:48:00.000Z

Yes. I remember Adlestrop—

The name, because one afternoon

Of heat the express-train drew up there

Unwontedly. It was late June.

The steam hissed. Someone cleared his throat.

No one left and no one came

On the bare platform. What I saw

Was Adlestrop—only the name

And willows, willow-herb, and grass,

And meadowsweet, and haycocks dry,

No whit less still and lonely fair

Than the high cloudlets in the sky.

And for that minute a blackbird sang

Close by, and round him, mistier,

Farther and farther, all the birds

Of Oxfordshire and Gloucestershire.

Kate Moss in Vogue, Adlestrop by Edward Thomas

You Are All I Really Want In This Life

2010-01-08T09:44:00.001Z

Wow it's incredibly cold again, and there is still snow everywhere. The birds in my garden are so still, they could be frozen to the branches. But let's hope not. I love this weather, the sunlight is strong and everywhere seems different, the snow smooths everything out.

I'm desperate for more winter clothes, a couple of huge, gorgeous jumpers wouldn't go amiss. And more scarves, you can never have to many scarves! I like these ones, but what I really desire is one covered all over in pompoms. Perfect for January.

Both scarves Accessorize.

Can Anybody Stop This Thing?

2010-01-07T18:09:00.000Z

Favourite People...

"I want to live life and be good to you

I want to fly and never come down"
Coldplay

They Spun A Web For Me

2010-01-07T17:57:00.000Z

Throwing stuff together on artweaver. It's pretty basic but I love layering, I like the idea of peeling back the differnt images, like scraping your way back through time.

It's so cold today and the fresh icy breaths of wind lift through me, I liked our conversation today because it just made me feel better. I didn't need to try either, the words spilled out of us and when you laughed i knew you meant it.
I don't appreciate friendship enough sometimes, I was looking for something more and didn't realize what we had was just so good already. I thought of some of the stupid things I've done but I feel like we're stable now. This morning I floated through happiness without having to think about it.

Did You See The Way She Looked At Me?

2009-11-18T22:52:00.001Z

Dark, gothic romance. Delicious. It's a long time since I saw the sea. Found out that J will be there at New Year. I think his presence may distract me, I'm rather in love with the idea of him though, something I've built up in my mind because I haven't seen him in since early summer.

Tell Me That You'll Open Your Eyes

2009-11-15T19:56:00.002Z

I miss the summer.

Posts are infrequent and irregular I know, tons of coursework and rugby matches have been equally distracting. I'm really not a sports person but I just love to watch rugby, so this weekend was good as Scotland won their match and Ireland scraped a fabulous draw with the Aussies.

I'm the least English person ever and have no loyalities to them.

Wales first, Ireland, followed by Scotland and finally England.

Sorry I'm sure none of you want to hear my ramblings. Hopefully a better post coming soon!

(Untitled - 1955, Robert Rauschenberg)

I've been studying Rauschenberg for my Art personal study. Look him up, he's amazing. I love the texture he creates in his pieces and the thoughts and opinions behind each one.

In The Light Of The Sun

2009-11-07T14:13:00.002Z

T taught me to play the intro for Augustana's Boston on the piano. I was amazed he knew it but then he's full of suprises, that boy.

I love this time of year, the cold nights and just for this week fireworks too. Bonfire night is one of my favourite traditions, on thursday we lit a fire in our back garden and had sparklers before semolishing a huge bowl of popcorn. Last night I went out to a big bonfire party, where they have a funfair and fireworks too, all in a huge field. It was a beautiful night and later we all trooped back to A's for doughnuts and scary movies, yumm.
When I got back home, my parcel from Australia had arrived! I won a cute little necklace made by Anna at muchlove from a competiton on TCH, I love getting parcels in the post.

Anyway I need to get some artwork done and have a blast on the sewing machine before the Wales -New Zealand rugby match - Wales Wales Wales :) Hope you all have a lovely weekend!

I love the mask in the first picture, delicious! and the messy hair in the second, I love messy hair, how it goes againt the super-polished look that everyone seems to want right now.

I Spy In The Night Sky Don't I?

2009-10-23T21:47:00.017+01:00

dreamt I was in a different world. One where everything was just how I wanted it to be - you and I wandering through the hot houses, breathing steamy marks on the glass, the sun filtering through the leaves and making your eyes glimmer.

"I spy in the night sky don't I

Phoebe Io Elara Leda Callisto Sinope

Janus Dione Portia so many moons

Quiet in the sky at night hot in the Milky Way

Outside in

Vega Capella Hadar Rigel Barnard's Star

Antares Aldebaran Altair Wolf 359

Betelgeuse sun sun sun..."

(Far Out - Blur)

The most beautiful little song ever, it makes me quite obsessed with stars and moons all over again. Alex James did the vocals, that's good, I love him. The remix version on youtube is also worth a listen.

Hold Me Down

2009-10-17T18:25:00.002+01:00

It was my 17th yesterday, so I've been busy aha. Woke up at 6.45 for presents, I now have my own sewing machine to destroy various materials and projects with yay. Nahh I'm pleased, it's a fabulous present. Then two hours of English followed by a delicious lunch out with my mother at a little rusticish cafe down a side street in our town. Then we popped into this cute litlle boutique where they sell vintage clothes and hats. I found a beautiful 40's dress, with a satin blue bodice, a greeenyblue skirt made of a heavier patterened material and a huge gold zip down the front. Apparently zips were a huge feature in the 40s on clothing. I haven't though about this before, some research needed I think. Anyway I didn't get it in the end but I'm tempted to go back!

Then I went out in the evening, picked up a birthday cake from some of my friends and said hello to everyone and then went and met my other pals for a meal out. Fabulous times, fabulous times - although it was freezing by 11pm so we all wandered off home. I wore a little checked dress, blues, pinks, yellows from River Island which always manages to look more like a playsuit, teal coloured tights and a pair of greyishbrown heels.

Earlier in the week we went out to the theatre with school and saw East is East, which was so amazingly hillarious. Possibly more so because I didn't realise the play was a comedy being the doof I am. Anyway I decided the actor playing Tariq was definetly hot but failed to mention this to anyone untill yesterday when I discovered S and A shared my opinion haha. S said she kept trying to make eye-contact, and I told her I had too and we thought he was probably very freaked out by the two of us or didn't actually notice us at all.

You And I, We're Gonna Live Forever

2009-10-07T12:50:00.024+01:00

(I write poetry quite a lot - this is an old one I wrote when I woke up once at four in the morning, dreaming about Liam Gallagher and Oasis.)

Elegy for a Rock and Roll Star

My wrists would ache as you pulled me close

To the electric heater; pulse rising, raising, racing.

We’d sit endlessly through the gloom

And I used to stare at the clock till my eyes fell out

Chord patterns and rift lines are thumb-tacked
Against off-white walls and there are some newspaper
Cuttings of you. Your face blaring out, watching me.
They say there is something better than this.

This room has grown heady,
From umber-orange incense smouldering like starlight.
Through the haze I reach for the brass handle
Burning my fingers as I twist a million times.

As the sun drenches me in its inky-gold,

I think for a fraction I see your ghost

Brush by the tattered curtains

And slip between the silk.

This Cindy Sherman photograph fits remarkably well.

Looking At You Now, You Would Never Know

2009-10-07T12:43:00.001+01:00

Sorry for the lack of posts, I've been ill! I'm on the mend now though, dosed up on paracetmol and wearing my ginormous grey wooly jumper to keep me warm.

Mum bought The Times this morning and as I was flicking through I saw this incredible Givenchy outfit. I wouldn't normally like that colour but today I love it. I think it's the way that material drapes across which makes it so delicious for me.

Right I reckon it's time for M&S soup, fruity toast and a nice long romantic film.

Jane Austen or Atonement? Or BBC's Jane Eyre? Could watch Gok too.

If I could be anywhere in the world today it would be Paris or Budle Bay in Northumberland.

It's In My Soul

2009-10-01T17:26:00.004+01:00

Dante Gabriel Rosetti is love. The model is Janey Morris (wife of William).

The checked-shirt brigade talked to me today. I now have friends in my history class hurrah.
I'm feeling super autumnal today and October is definetly my favourite month of the year. Huge skies, carpets of leaves in jewel colours. And my birthday too! Can't wait untill half term when we will esape somewhere beautiful for the week, probably the farm in Pembrokeshire and go to the coast lots and lots.
Anyway in spirit of the autumn I wore a teal coloured shirt dress with my browney/orangey/blueish pasmina scarf. Two hours of Art and I did nothing. Except cut out stupid pictures from magazines with B and leave them as presents in peoples' drawers and discuss feeling ill. Yerrrrrp.

Boris Johnson is on Eastenders tonight. Is it bad that I am very excited about this?

One Way Ticket Yeh, It Took Me So Long To Find Out

2009-09-29T15:11:00.001+01:00

Wore purple tights today with my new brown boots and the pop of colour made me cheerful for the whole day! - This is why I posted the picture above. I spent two hours making felt in textiles earlier which was fun and the results are great but were very painful to achieve as I feel my wrists have literally been ripped off an account of all the rolling. I am a wimp though, to be honest. And I chipped all my nail varnish. Bad times, bad times. The nail varnish is bright blue and hmm the opposite of subtle. It went beautifully with Alana's hot pink though - I may just have to steal that off her.

Listening to The Beatles now and feeling super chilled. The oak tree opposite our house is wavering slightly in the wind and the sun is catching the tops of the clouds. It's so bright I can hardly look. I love clouds, they always seem like they're part of another world and right now I just want to climb up on one and float away. Like being in a plane I guess. I flew for the first time this summer and it was beautiful, the world getting smaller and smaller and then going over the Alps and seeing the cloud caught on the mountain peaks.

I humungously want a big chunky knitted scarf like the one in the picture. An orangey sort of one I think. Anyone know where I can find such a delicious thing?

He's Not Perfect, He's My Hero

2009-09-28T18:06:00.004+01:00

I didn't see MM today because he has left and changed sixth form. Explains not seeing him all of last week too. I'm going to miss him ridiculously I think.

Texting
Me: Well good luck with it, i'm sure you'll do really well and be by far the coolest person in the place ;) x

MM: Awww u flatter me E . . . But yeah pretty much :) good luck! x

Saw MA a fair bit. Like him but don't like him. Does that make sense? No - didn't think so.

I watched Dirty Dancing last night. I think my hair might be a tiny bit like Baby's (hurrah) but perhaps a little more crazy. I love the chemistry between the two leads - it makes the film so alive.

Traffic

2009-09-27T20:29:00.000+01:00

I tried to post earlier but the computer was having spazisitics again. Saw J today, smiled and said "seeya tommorow". He nearly fell over in shock on account of my niceness. I'm fed up of fighting with him now. Watched that Crowdie & Cream program, I'm hooked but darn it was the last one in the series. It was beautiful though, all wide skies, sunlit beaches and midnight goodbyes on the pier.

It feels like summer's really drawing to a close now and I guess the days of shorts and static caravans are over but I just love the light in this photograph and the textures of the lace curtain and feathered headress. I'm inspired to create my own headress for the new year party I'm going to. The theme is cowboys so I'm going as an red indian. Yeh it's a long story.

"Is anyone going anywhere?

Everyone gotta be somewhere."

- Stereophonics

Hope I see MM tommorow.

I Wouldn't Believe Your Radio

2009-09-21T22:10:00.001+01:00

Perfect. The ruching and shoulders are just gorgeous. The socks, a touch of genius.

Scraped back hair is just wrong though. Never done it in my life.

Good day - hardly saw M though and MM not at all. Weirdly JD came up in conversation because his ex girlfriend came into textiles on a sort of work experience thing from uni. She says he's "buggered off up to Scotland".

No wonder I haven't seen him in ages. Damn it.

(Photograph - Topshop)

Let's Fade Together

2009-09-20T18:15:00.002+01:00

I got my membership to TFS hurrah! Finished the history essay too. Might try and get some art done now before settling down to Crowdie & Cream. It's one of the cutest program I've ever seen - although admittedly it is probably targeted towards 80 year old Scottish people but hey.

Sourced these from TFS. I love the building in the background of the first picture. My daydreams are filled with architecture like that. The second has the sea and the coast - what is more perfect than that?

Making His World A Little Colder

2009-09-20T12:58:00.001+01:00

Feeling ill. History essay to write. Tried to talk to J but he'd gone by the time I had the chance.

"And anytime you feel the pain, hey jude, refrain,
Dont carry the world upon your shoulders.
For well you know that its a fool who plays it cool
By making his world a little colder."

It's Just Not As Clear As Before

2009-09-19T11:01:00.000+01:00

Woke up feeling ill. Two essays to write and a memory/identity box to make for art. I'm quite excited by the box idea. Images I plan to include in my box because they are beautiful, personal and have strong memories for me.

You Could Be Happy - I Hope You Are

2009-09-18T17:14:00.003+01:00

So I had a crap day, don't know why. Well I can hazard a few guesses-

1. We read Jane Eyre out loud - a paragraph each. That is the most stupid thing ever - do teachers not realise it's impossible to follow when people are constantly switching and stumbling and saying all the words wrong. Damn it's not like I get the words right but seriously can we not just read in our heads.

2. I went into art only to have T gawping all over my pictures - they were just pictures. and then trying to find the straight bits in my hair. Is this normal? I think not.

3. Spending nearly an hour listening to people talking utter rubbish and then going on about MM like they'd known him for years. Which they hadn't. Not that i know him all that well but hello it was me he wanted to date.

4. I hardly saw MA. Which is probably what I'm most annoyed about. I don't want to "like" him - I want to be pals haha. Yeh well I guess you can't always get your heart to shut up so hey I'll just go with it. I want to spend time with him either way though cos he always makes me smile.

Forrrrk - I apologise for all this trash. I just need to rant it all out. I think I'll skip the meal tonight though cos they're all going to get drunk and I am too fricking tired and JS going. bahh.

Sorry.Sorry.Sorry.
Think I need some food, soap operas and sleep. And some beautiful dreams.

I Still Love You More Than Anyone Else Could

2009-09-17T17:29:00.001+01:00

Isn't he beautiful?

Christopher Walken playing Nick in The Deer Hunter.

I've had his face in my head for days.

I Tried To Tell You Before I Left

2009-09-17T17:25:00.003+01:00

Project work from earlier this year. I'm listening to Snow Patrol - the same songs over and over again. I think it's comforting to me which is probably why I do it. Although they are just beautiful songs. Today was good, I kept catching moments, like I was looking at myself from outside. My art lesson was great, I just feel relaxed with it and I had a lovely time with my friends who were chilled too. Then later we were walking up the hill and K thought a wasp stung her throat - it was actually chocolate conflake cake but we just stopped and laughed for ages. I think sometimes I'm a bit too serious so laughing is quite a tonic right now.

Why Can't We Take Things Slower?

2009-09-16T08:57:00.003+01:00

Oops haven't posted in over a week but yeh I have excuses. Kind of. Started textiles at school now which I am loving I must say. The theme is exotic which some girl took as erotic hahaa. It's a good theme though as there is tons I can do with it - so I spent all last night sticking sequins onto paper flowers for part of my moodboard. I walked Tommy yesterday along the river and it was so beautiful, the way the light was catching on the water and everywhere was green and it didn't feel like September at all. (Tommy is a dog by the way.)

Wore a new outfit to sixth form yesterday but had to borrow my mum's new cardigan cos it was the only one that looked good with my blue floaty top and denim skirt. It was cute.

Also I can get last year's artwork back now so I might post up some pictures of my last sketchbook thing.

Teen Vogue. Scrumptious pictures - I am a sucker for anything romantic.

All The Gold Dust In Her Eyes

2009-09-09T16:17:00.002+01:00

Long time since I last posted! Got the big jumper on my wishlist - it's the perfect shade of grey, fabulous quality and I am wearing it all the time now haha. (Charity Shop £2 - down from £6 cos it had some teeny holes in the sleeve - but they were easily mended) I got the blazer too but it's rather large but I think it will still work well with all my dresses and things - it's a good colour too - dark blue without being too navy. I think I'd like to change the buttons though as they just disappear into the fabric so I'm thinking some goldish military ones or something.
I need a proper sort out of my wardrobe now because of being able to wear my own clothes in 6th form - and I am waking up every day with no idea what to wear. I want to look like I've made an effort but at the same time I want to be comfortable and I don't want to go over the top. I got my timetable today and it has lots of frees which I like and tons of art and textiles lessons hurrah!
I love this folk look at the moment - may try and style myself up in something similar for tomorow.

I Don't Like, I Love

2009-08-29T17:20:00.000+01:00

Sequins are such a major trend right now and this 3.1 Phillip Lim dress would be so perfect for B's party - if I could afford it! I think it's the ruffling at the neckline which makes it such a winner. However there is a lot of sequin on the high street right now - so if I find myself wandering into Republic or Topshop I'll keep my eyes peeled for something similar.

Do You Ever Wonder?

2009-08-29T16:55:00.000+01:00

Wishlist.

1 polaroid camera

2 ginormous baggy jumper that goes right down to my knees

3 more piano music

4 a better mascara

5 fineliners seeing as mine have all pretty much died

6 cute little vintage cardigan I saw the other day with a paisley print

7 fruit gums

8 band of horses albums

9 blazer which i can wear with pretty much anything and everything
10 that particular shade of blue nail varnish

Take A Glorious Bite Out Of The Whole World

2009-08-28T17:32:00.000+01:00

Just now I got back from doing the paper-round in the rain, as soon as I finished the clouds broke open and we were flooded with glorious 5pm summer sunlight. My clothes were a soaking mass when I got home but I didn't care. I love being outside when its stopped raining and you can see the actual rain being blown from the trees by the wind.

We had to go into school yesterday to collect our results for GCSE. It's so weird to watch everyone's expressions as they go in ahead of you. Mostly people seemed to float around the room, looking vague and unaware. Perhaps it was shock. I remember it being bizzarely quiet and I olny got to glance at my paper before being whisked away to the other side of the room. But I did well so it's all good.

Last night we watched 'Room With A View' a film based on the novel by E. M Forrester. It was the perfect romantic story really, funny too, and was so simple and effective. The costumes and landscapes were so beautiful. I'm so glad we have it on DVD because now I'm going to watch it again and again.

Los Angeles Waltz

2009-08-26T19:32:00.000+01:00

Today we picked damsons in my grandmother's back garden. The ancient stepladder was fairly precarious and perhaps my gladiator-like sandals weren't the best choice of footwear. Needless to say we got enough for jam.

It's A Little Late Now

2009-08-26T10:30:00.000+01:00

headlights on dark roads. the damp streetlight.

steps across the platform.

skittering hare-legged down to the trainline.

falling over suitcases, the adverts flickering past.

carriages shuffling like packs of cards.

our breath synchronised.

this is instead of telling him how I feel

She Is Elusive And I Am Awake

2009-06-27T12:25:00.001+01:00

Launch Of Chance Magazine

2009-06-27T12:09:00.000+01:00

I love making up magazines. When I was a small child I had millions of pretend newspapers and books floating around. I used to love writing all the different columns and drawing accompanying pictures.
Later when I was 10 me and my best friend created a monthly school class newsletter, "The Mango & The Kiwi". We loved being the editors, compiling our ideas, writing competitions, recipies and using the old school photocopier to print out copies for all our classmates.

This blog was born from my love of art, fashion and literature, my ideas about the world, how people have influenced me and the inspiration I have gathered over the years. I wanted to create my own online magazine and so present 'Chance Magazine'.

Eleanorxxxx, 09